Relationship

Love isn’t practical

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From what I have learnt, love has never been easy

Fron what I have felt, love can hurt so deep

From what I have seen, love can’t always conquer everything

From everything that has been through, some people are meant to fall in love with each other, but not meant to be together.

And yet, loving you is one of the best thing ever happened to me

Ness

Relationship

Soul mates

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I don’t know how you are so familiar to me—or why it feels less like I am getting to know you and more as though I am remembering who you are. How every smile, every whisper brings me closer to the impossible conclusion that I have known you before, I have loved you before—in another time, a different place, some other existence. (lang leav)

and in this life time, I have to say goodbye to you… again.

I will carry a fragment of you with me, so you could find me your missing piece after life.

So perhaps, I will see you in another life time, in another dimension.

Goodnight, my soul mate.

Ness

Life Story

The clock

Do you see its eye?
It is staring at me!

Do you hear its voice?
It is yelling at me!

No, I’m not hallucinating

Please!
It’s running after me!
It’s coming to me!

No, I’m not imagining

Please!
I lost my breath
I lost my track
Please!

Sshhh…
It could hear you
It could see you

What? You don’t know it?

It’s the clock!

It doesn’t want me to rest
It doesn’t want me to stop

I can’t
Any more
Any longer

Stop thinking
Stop pacing
Stop rushing

Oh no!

Tick tock
It’s the clock!

I reached the point where I feel so tired. Physically and mentally. I want to quit my job, stop socializing, stop going out, stop going further to reach my goals, and just lay down and drift of into a cave and hide there. Suddenly, I feel so sick with trying and surviving. Actually No, it’s not a sudden. Maybe I’ve been holding it inside all this time. Pretending to be brave. I feel so exhausted til I cant feel anymore. I become so numb. I just want to quit… everything. The clock keeps ticking. I can hear it out loud. Even in my sleep. It won’t stop. It doesn’t want me to rest. Or perhaps, I’m being delusional. Yes, I might be crazy.

Ness-

Life Story, Relationship

Mi casa, mi querido

Dear you,

It’s been years
Hours
Thousand of hours, I suppose

They said,
“Never give up on something that you can’t go a day without thinking about.

You are more than just a ‘something’ to me

Million times I tried to banish this illogical damned feeling
Zillion times I yelled to myself to be real
God knows, I have tried

It should be easy
Easy to let go and move on
Move on to kill any hope for us

I can’t.

I don’t know what love is.

BUT

You feel like home to me
Warm
Safe
Comforting

We breathe under the same sky
Yet the sun and the moon haven’t been together
Miles and miles away from home

Time is ticking.
Fate is judging.

My heart is yearning to be at home

Should I let you fly away?
Should I give us up?

Will you fight for us?

-Ness-

Et si tu savais, ce que ce moment signifie pour moi
Et combien de temps j’ai attendu pour te toucher
Et si tu savais à quel point tu me rends heureuse
Je n’ai jamais pensé que j’aimerais quelqu’un si fort

Relationship

Sulit…

Untuk dia disana :

Sulit…
Aku dan kau pun sama-sama merasakan

Tak bisa kujanjikan kalau aku tidak akan berubah
Namun aku mau mencoba
Tak bisa kupastikan kalau aku tidak akan jatuh
Namun aku mau mencoba

Tak kuingkari kalau rindu yang kaurasakan menyiksamu
Namun kau tetap bertahan
Tak kuabaikan kalau penantian yang kaulakukan melelahkanmu
Namun kau tetap bertahan

Antara timur dan barat
Aku membenci matahari, kau membenci salju
Tetapi, aku dan kau sama-sama menunggu
Antara pagi dan malam
Aku memandang bulan, kau memandang fajar
Tetapi, aku dan kau sama-sama menanti

Sampai hari itu datang
Hanya ada rasa diantara aku dan kau
Hanya ada harapan diantara aku dan kau
Sampai hari itu datang

Perbedaan itu membuat kita bersama
Perbedaan itu membuat kita sama

Sulit…
Aku dan kau pun sama-sama merasakan

Vness (Nov 16 2010, The Maxi’s, Bdg)

Relationship

Antara aku, dia, dan cinta

(Blue Curacaou)
Malam itu relung hatiku terpekur layu
Entah gundah apa yang membuatku terbisu
Secercah harapku akan hadirnya dewi bulan di tengah langit malam,
nyatanya hanya ada lautan hitam dalam kelam

…dan aku…

(Death by Chocolate)
Bibirku kembali meracau dengan dua sahabat jiwa
Setiap tuturku terucap, sekelebat sesak semakin terasa
Gelak tawaku terdengar parau dalam ruang kosong raga
Dalam sudut tersepi, aku terdesak untuk berkhayal tentang asa

…dan dia…

(Bintang pertama)
Dalam lamun, sosok itu kembali menembus dimensiku
“Suka”, ujarnya… “Luka” balasku…
Imaji hangat tentang romansa kala itu terasa kian membeku
Jarak yang membuat rindu, tetapi rindu yang menghasutku

…dan cinta…

(Bintang kedua)
Tak kusangka kini aku ingin berhenti berlari
“Tunggu aku,” dia memohon… “Rengkuh aku,” aku melirih…
Entah rasa apa yang merasukiku untuk tetap berdiri
Walau resah dan ragu menghantui, hatiku tak mampu menipu diri

…aku cinta dia…

Vness (Nov 13 2010, c9, Bandung)